JDMPRO777 wrote: ↑Sun Dec 17, 2017 6:22 am Well, I left my employment due to a settlement agreement. I was a "whistle-blower". My department had a serious issue with drugs. Officers were dealing; supervisors were dealing and everyone was buying. They refused to drug test; for pre-employment and even after there was a complaint, and there were many. It had come to my attention that an officer could no longer pay back the drug money he owed to a criminal so he instead started giving up other officers home addresses as payment.

Both my dogs were poisoned. I was also poisoned. My "big boss" appeared in High Times magazine advocating the legalization of drugs. Honestly, I dont care what people do in their free time, but when you are on the job, and others lives depend on you, you need to act accordingly. Many did not. We even had an officer overdose and die from heroine. Year after year I put up with it but after the death of my dogs (at an expense of over $5,000.00 trying to save them) I was told they were poisoned by the vets, and unofficially told why by coworkers. I had enough and threatened to sue.

In the end, the big boss got asked to leave, I got paid with the condition that I too leave. The whole Blue Line thing. There was no murder investigation launched for my attempted homicide which my attorneys did not like. This big boss was friends with U.S. Senators. His wife was a leading Democratic fundraiser for the Democratic Party. Big mistake on my part. I should have just shut up. Things have been difficult ever since. Lets just leave it at that.

So anyway, I found myself out of a job and in need of a vacation. New England winter was approaching and the finalists were: South Africa; Costa Rica and Cambodia. South Africa lost due to prices and crime. Costa Rica lost due to Zika virus. Cambodia won largely due to its prices (2$ hotel rooms sealed the deal) and my affinity toward Asians in general. I always thought that they seemed to be pro-family; pro-community; a trait which is falling away in my home country on a large scale. After arriving I did what tourists do, drank and saw the sights. Then I met a girl.

After 5 1/2 months I was ready to return due to my return flight already being purchased, but I really did not want to leave. A month prior I got the news. Baby. Literally everyone told me, just go. Get on the plane and don't look back... everyone does it. I was conflicted. I said my goodbye; got to the airport, got my boarding pass; screened my carry-on luggage (no check bags); got to immigration and stopped. I just looked at them. The plane had boarded and I was the last one left to board. I couldn't do it. It was a defining moment that I had not expected. I had no children. I liked it here. I had nothing really to go back to. I was totally unprepared for life in Cambodia with or without a kid, but I realized that he would be at least slightly better off with me in the picture. I turned around and walked out of the airport. I went home.

JDMPRO777 wrote: ↑Sun Dec 17, 2017 6:42 am I have never had any mental health background.