clutchcargo wrote: ↑Wed Jun 27, 2018 8:30 am

KevinT wrote: ↑Tue Jun 26, 2018 11:07 pm
I think something is not working well inside me.

Don 't worry, it's a primal thing..something about wanting to sow your wild oats..

KevinT wrote: ↑Tue Jun 26, 2018 11:07 pm Hi all, how can I start... I have a non Cambodian GF. And on the other hand, some days ago I started to have special feelings for a bar girl. I met this girl around 1y ago. I am about much older than her. She was the prettiest in the place, a butterfly? probably, and I started to feel something for her around those days. Then I stopped going to bars. But lately I had a couple of chances of going there again. And this time it was all more intense. In my comeback, she said she missed me, and she liked me, said I want to be your boyfriend, bla bla crap, and she kissed sooo good (yes, don't say it, because I am not stupid, I know she is a hooker). And I told her what I felt too. I was a bit drunk, but not super. After all this, my feelings started to get a bit stronger. And the stupidity of the situation made me feel more anxious than normal, I think of her all the day. I have this annoying feeling in my chest like when you are a stupid teenager in love but in a toxic way. Watching her stupid posts in FB, etc (she publishes without restriction, of course). All in all is a mistake from my side.

Last night of the 2 I saw her in this 2 week period, we talked and had fun together. I know she is a professional, and she knows how to make a customer feel as he is the great king of Persia. Yes, I know the theory about bar girls, but I still have this pressure in my chest. We even went a bit further than kisses... You know what I mean. She seems lovely to me even when she yells "hooker style" like if she wasn´t aware of how charming she is and didn´t care about rules, so natural. Normally she is calmed and speaks softly. I just feel so protective towards her, which of course she doesn't need, I know for her it's just a job, and not a nice one. I just have all these mixed feelings in my mind, between protection (she must be really poor like almost all Cambodians), pitty, attraction, admiration for her hard life, and stupidness from my side. I know our cultures are tottally opposite in everything (from way of chewing food to reading books). I guess I will overcome this in some weeks, because I planned not doing this ever again. But I am somehow feeling sad, like I wanted to give it a try but knowing it´s impossible. For my engaged situation and for the obvious differences. It´s not even a possibility. I think something is not working well inside me. Maybe Phnom Penh is making me go a bit insane...

violet wrote: ↑Wed Jun 27, 2018 10:53 am Naive newcomber engaged to non-Asian has need for excitment, and to feel like Casanova. Falls victim to usual cunning of pretty bar girl and the dark workings of Phnom Penh. Makes usual noise about feeling bad. Believes her when she tells him she misses him and wants him as her boyfriend. Seeks approval to do the dirty on fiancee, 'cos he's a victim to his genes, the femme fatale, and the headonistic KoW.



Oh the glory. Fairytale in Cambodia.